August 11, 2020

5 Years Later – My Widow’s Journey

I started to write My Widow’s Journey as part of my website,, right after Sid died in 2015. It did not go well. I was emotionally broken and completely unable to write anything related to what I was experiencing. What have I been doing for the last 5 years? Sleepwalking. Whereas many of you were able to put the past behind you and move on to new loves and marriages; to new experiences and travels; to enjoying life as it was meant to be lived, I was………not. When Sid died, I went into a state of shock and fell […]
August 7, 2020

A Widow’s Journey – An Introduction

A WIDOW’S JOURNEY – AN INTRODUCTION In this section, I will continue the writing I started in my previous website, For those of you who followed me on that site for the eight years it was active and successful, you will recognize the topic. I started it as part of my Alzheimer blog writing after my husband’s death from Alzheimer’s Disease in 2015, but was emotionally unable to continue it. It was too painful for me to write about my early difficulties as a widow. The topic lay dormant for 5 years, but my struggles did not. I achieved […]
August 7, 2020

A Widow’s Journey – The Fog

And so the first day of my life without Sid in it begins. It has been 45 ½ years since he became part of my life on our first date in November of 1969. It is June, 2015. There are people in my house. Who is here? I tell myself that I’m okay because my sister, Arlene, flew in from Chicago, and my son, Joel, flew in from California. They are staying with me. They are watching over me. What are they saying? I don’t know. I’m tired. I need to lie down. Why am I so tired? I recall […]
July 29, 2020

Tribute to Sid on our 50th Wedding Anniversary

As a teenager, I often asked my mother………”How do you KNOW? How do you know that the boy you are dating is THE ONE?” How do you know, I wondered, that this person is the one you want to share your entire life with forever. At 15 years old, “entire life” was impossible for me to comprehend. It seemed interminable. How could one want to spend eternity with anyone, never mind someone you had been dating for a short time? Her frustratingly vague answer was always the same. “You’ll know”, she said.  And one cold November night in 1969, I […]